Its funny how things work out in this world, how badly someone can affect you. To start off, I think I’d have the cleanest mind in the world, raised from a family of nothing but purity yet you see me drinking in parties and all. Whatever its just alcohol right? But no, now I’ve started smoking too. Great. Its like that hidden desire to want to look forward to something in your day, wanting to feel at peace and calm with something that’ll help. And then there’s the feeling of wanting to feel accepted and just doing whatever to get them to so much even glance at you. It’s so sad, do I really want that attention? Yes. Yes I do and I hate myself for it. This all started off with this girl I fell in love with with a badass-ery of 6, and I at 5, therefore was something I just couldn’t handle. Should’ve know better than to bite off more than I can chew.
